pleiades

i abandoned control somewhere between ice-cold clouds
came back just to disappear without a trace
afraid that silver-eyed demons might have spoken the truth:
there's nothing left underneath the violence - the only beauty lies in decay

for years, i answered in blood, til i forgot the question
i created an image, ate all my feelings, a slave of a love-infected heart
tried to drown out the voices, still sharing a bed with ghosts of the past

walked with selene hand in hand, but never in daylight;
the vampiric assassin of my own better life
crumbled city walls between the tips of my fingers
fought a knight in fcking shining armor,
then stepped outside, the destruction

to choose the moon instead of a brain,
cause where the hell had thinking ever led me
chose the stars for eyes, so i could see her in heaven
never found a cure for love, never will